"How could God restore us to sanity? What is this sanity thing? I am not insane!" Those were my words in the beginning.
Websters Dictionary on sanity... sanity (n): soundness of mind.
If you think you might have a problem with alcohol and you try controlled drinking, is that soundness of mind? There are many different types of alcoholics so the sanity varies. Or I should say insanity. For me, my disease was progressive and the insanity progressed with it. Some of my insane thoughts and actions were: the obsession to drink, controlled drinking, isolating myself, lying for stupid reasons unknown, trying to control how people thought, plotting and planning when I felt wronged, ... this list could go on and on and I will spare you.
Today, because I came to believe in a Power greater than myself and with the help of Step 3, I have some sanity. Some days are better than others though. This is not a program of perfection just doing the best I can with what I have been given. Today is my gift. I get to live today.
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