Random Thoughts...

My bio-Dad called me out of the blue two days ago. To hear the sickness of the disease of alcoholism in his everyday conversation, it blows me away. Alcohol is but a symptom of this disease called alcoholism. I don't think many people really understand that concept.

When my father says to me that he no longer has any brothers because of what THEY did to him, he fails to see his part in it. Like, what did HE do to make them act the way they did. My Dad was saying to me that he is moving and that no one will ever find him or see him again. As if the family is REALLY going to be hurt by this or is REALLY even thinking about him as much as he thinks they are. I am not taking sides on this but I am beginning to believe that THAT side of the family has alcoholism running crazily around rampantly. They all may not be drinking but they sure do exhibit the traits. Sad. I am grateful that I have gone through the things I had to go through to get to this place I am at now. By the grace of God, I have had that Spiritual Awakening so that I may be at peace with myself and to serve others without ego or self.

Onto other random thoughts...

In the "relationships in recovery" post, I talked about a potential person. Well, that didn't turn out so well. I could be wrong, but I feel like I was used as a pawn for him to get his girlfriend back. I am not upset just sad to see someone in the program not practicing the principals. AGAIN, I may be wrong. The old me would have been plotting and planning to "get back" at him or her. Today, I can let that all go because ... really ... in the grand scheme of things ... how important is it?!?! Not enough to drive me more crazy than I already am.